The Twilight Of The Gods

Entries for August, 2004

August 2nd, 2004

Excited na ko...erhm...talaga?

Posted by Nerva at 07:20 PM on August 2, 2004 as a favorite post.

Okay, okay...alam kong sinusuway ko sarili kong prinsipyo...hindi ako dapat nagtatype ng entry ko ngayon.... Pero 2 oras na kong walang tigil kaka review....siguro naman pwede akong magpahinga, diba?

Maganda yung mga reviewer na binili ng papa saka mama ko para sa 'kin. Effective yung yellow book ni Arellano V. Busto at yung MSA Quick Math Review na tig 180 php. Nakakatuwang mag review ng mga past lessons-----lessons mula first hanggang third year. Nakaka refresh ng utak at stock knowledge. Dumadaloy na uli yung mantika ng utak ko. Hee.

UPCAT na sa Saturday. Hindi ko alam kung bakit, pero excited na kong magtest at bumalik uli sa malawak na Diliman Campus. Feeling at home na kaya? Haha. Ayoko munang umasa...baka ma disappoint lang ako.

Maya-maya balik aral ako...dere-derecho na to hanggang Friday. Buti nga naawa yung school namin, sa Friday half-day lang kami. Anak naman ng Poring...hindi na lang ginawang walang pasok ang 4th year...kuripot talaga, tsk tsk...

Wish ko lang makapasa kami ng mga kaklase ko...hehe...but a part of me...(a very tiny part lang naman) nagsasabi na sana...di ako matanggap sa Diliman; sa Baguio campus na lang. Malalim yung dahilan....di ko na ilalagay dito.

Dumadagundong na music ng Nickelback, Evanescence at Linkin Park ang kasama ko pag ganitong seryosong review ang ginagawa ko. Mas maingay, mas malinaw utak ko. (Hee. Baliktad talaga utak ni Nerva! Masanay na kayo! )

Hrm...anyway...back to aral na ko!
Currently listening to: Faint by Linkin Park
Currently reading: MSA Quick Math Review
Currently feeling: calm

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August 5th, 2004

The Last Hours

Posted by Nerva at 07:02 PM on August 5, 2004 as a favorite post.

Andito uli ako. Sumusuway pa rin sa prinsipyo. Pero hindi ko matanggihan yung tawag ng keyboard sa kamay ko. Hindi pa ko nagsisimulang mag review sa araw na ito. Mamaya ng konti, nagpapahinga kasi ako.

Samu't-saring pakiramdam at kaisipan ang gumuguhit sa akin ngayon. Excited na ko para sa UPCAT. Andito uli yung naramdaman ko noon nung bago ako mag exam para makapasok sa MunSci. Yung pakiramdam na kayang-kaya kong pumasa dahil nasa akin na lahat. Natatakot akong umasa sa nararamdaman ko, baka kasi mapahiya lang ako at umiyak sa hulihan, paglubog ng araw.

Hindi ako aatras, syempre. Kailangan munang masagutan ko ang exam bago ko masabing suko ako o susulong pa. Halu-halo, hindi ko maintindihan.

As usual, dumadagundong ang radyo. Limp Bizkit. Mas tigasin. Haha. Kalahati ng MSA Reviewer ko natapos ko na, and I am proud to say na matataas ang nakuha ko, partikular sa Science at English. Huwag niyo nang tanungin sa Math. Alam niyo na yon.

Kanina tinanong kami,

"Ano'ng magiging reaksiyon ninyo kapag pumasa kayo sa UPCAT?"

Sari-sari yung mga sagot:

"Ma'am, tatalon ako hanggang langit!"

"Ako sisigaw hanggang sumabog ngalangala ko't baga!"

"Ako tatahimik lang, kasi nakakahiya naman doon sa mga di nakapasa pero nag-aral ng masinsinan."

"Magpapamisa po ako sa sampung iba-ibang simbahan!"

Pero ang sagot ko:

"Ma'am, ako po, tiyak ko, maiiyak ako. Kasi hindi biro yung paghahanda na ginawa ko para doon----apat na taong paghihirap yon; pinuhunan mo ng pawis, dugo, luha at pagod. Masayang makitang lahat ng sakripisyo mo may kinahinatnan."

Masaya yung talakayan, yung ibang kaklase ko natawa sa kin, pero mas marami yung nakaunawa nung ibig kong sabihin. Totoo naman, hindi ba?

Sino ba ang hindi maiiyak? Apat na taon sa Science High School-----palaging puyat, gabi na kung umuwi, nagdurusa sa Ulcer dahil imbes na kumain e nag-aral, laging loaded sa homework, test at kung anu-ano pa.

Makita mo lang yung letter----na nagsasabing nakapasa ka, napakalaking bagay na non. Para kang naalisan ng sampung libong tinik sa dibdib.



Haaaay....minsan lang ako mag-senti. Balik aral na ko ulit. Salamat sa iyo, kung sino ka man, sa pagbasa mo nito.
Currently listening to: Human Nature by Kyla
Currently reading: MSA UPCAT Reviewer
Currently feeling: restless

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August 7th, 2004

Teh Big Day!!! /gg

Posted by Nerva at 05:47 AM on August 7, 2004.

UPCAT na mamaya. Gusto kong umalis ng 8:30 dito sa bahay, pero ang mga tao dito lahat nakakabwiset.

Ambabagal kumilos, kapag sinasabing ko traffic na kapag alas-diyes, ang kinakatwiran sa akin;

"May kotse ka naman a!"

Which is, in my opinion, bullshit. Mas mabilis pa yata kung ako na lang mag-isa at mag-commute ako; wala pa sigurong 2- minutes nasa Quezon Ave na ko pag sumakay ako ng MRT.

Gusto ko sanang sagutin e. Pero disiplinado akong anak at nirerespeto ko pa magulang ko. Pero mamaya, if worse comes to worse, bababa ako ng sasakyan at sasakay ng MRT.

At nakisabay pa yung pinsan kong mas masahol pa sa kuhol kung kumilos. Kanina nga gustung-gusto ko nang sigawan;

"ANO KA BA! MALIGO NA LANG ISANG ORAS KA PA DYAN SA BANYO! BAKA AKALA MO IKAW LANG ME LAKAD!"

Nakakainis talaga, super. Ayoko pa naman sa lahat e yung mga mababagal kumilos! Buwiset.

Currently listening to: white flag by Dido
Currently feeling: angry

wAnNa UsE mAgIc?

August 8th, 2004

NATAPOS DIN!!!

Posted by Nerva at 05:52 AM on August 8, 2004 as a favorite post.

Tapos na ang UPCAT...now I wait in trepidation for the results...

Ayos ang English at Reading Comprehension. Masaya.

Yung Math at Science ayos lang din...pero gahol sa oras!

Pamatay yung Chemistry! I'd gladly swallow 100 Physics questions kesa pagsagutin mo 'ko ng Molality, Molarity at Normality! Kainis!

I know I did my best.
Currently listening to: Trick Me by Kelis
Currently reading: WoE 19
Currently feeling: accomplished

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August 10th, 2004

My Deviantart Account

Posted by Nerva at 07:43 PM on August 10, 2004.

Wala lang..gumawa lang ako ng account...hehe. so far wala pa siyang illustrations...fanfics muna...

http://rishid-nerva.deviantart.com

wAnNa UsE mAgIc?

August 14th, 2004

Why...?

Posted by Nerva at 12:46 PM on August 14, 2004.

I have this really close friend of mine. We have been friends ever since in 1st year high school. There is four of us, always together in *cutting* classes and illegal canteen escapades.

This friend of mine's really good in Math, and he's one of my regular tutors. It became a habit that a week before every major test we'd hang out in my place and review.

...

...

...

Until all of that changed, just recently.

See, I found out that he had a girlfriend. The girl's in the same class as ours. And I was horrified when I first heard the news.

I have nothing against the girl, but I couldn't like her. She's simply too kikay for my and our other friends' liking. I don't know how he could have ever ended up with that kind of person.

Now, my friend starts to avoid me. Whenever I approach him to ask for a little help with Math, he always pushes me to someone else. Or sometimes when I corner him and ask how he is, he walks away even before I get there.

And I don't know why he does those things.
Currently listening to: Going Under by Evanescence
Currently reading: The Golden Compass by Philip Pullman
Currently feeling: sad

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August 17th, 2004

Loose Bracket! WTF?!

Posted by Nerva at 02:06 PM on August 17, 2004.

We were having out Art Class this 7 am. The teacher wasn't there and we were all busy painting something on our canvasses. I looked around and when the coast was clear, whipped out a piece of Goldilock's Cookies n Cream polvoron.

I took a bite, and then pain suddenly erupted from my lower jaw. Horrified, I hurried to the nearest CR and went to see what happened.

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...

...

ONE OF MY BRACE BRACKETS CAME OFF MY TEETH! :scared

I hurried to our guidance counselor and asked if I could go home. My father fetched me fifteen minutes later, under a persistend and strong rain.

And I said to myself, "I hate these metals in my mouth."
Currently listening to: How Come by D12
Currently reading: El Filibusterismo
Currently feeling: ouch

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August 18th, 2004

Well...

Posted by Nerva at 06:58 PM on August 18, 2004.

Pride
Which deadly sin do you represent? (Angel Sanctuary Pics)

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Ouch. Sometimes this is true...
Currently listening to: Buloy by Parokya ni Edgar
Currently reading: TCWAG 7 by Louis Leithold
Currently feeling: morose

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August 19th, 2004

May Umutot Sa Room Namin Kanina...

Posted by Nerva at 06:10 PM on August 19, 2004.



Yeah. Mga 8 am kanina yon, when we were taking our goddamn Calculus Long Test. Buong klase concentrated sa pagsosolve ng sangkatutak na Trigonometric Equations.

Sinosolve ko non yung proving (na talaga namang ansakit sa ulo) nung may maamoy akong hindi kaaya-aya. Noong una akala ko yung lansa lang ng Laguna de Bay (kasi minsan bigla na lang talagang naghahasik ng lagim yung lake, amoy water lily na bulok), kaya di ko muna pinansin.

Pero sabi ko sa sarili ko, Amf, iba to a. ambaho!

Tapos maya-maya mag nagreklamo!

"Hoy sino yon! Itae nio na yan!"

Tawanan kami. E since na may test nga, di rin nagtagal yung tawanan. Akala ko dun lang maghahasik ng lagim yung bastos naming kaklase.

Amf, me second time pa!

Yung pangalawa naman during Journalism class. Ang masama, nasa library kami! Aircon saka kulob! Talagang nanunoot sa kasuluk-sulukan ng ilong! Grabe!

Pagbalik sa room para kaming nakahinga ng maluwag----yun bang para kang nakawala sa bunganga ng kadiliman---yun, ganun yung feeling!

Hanggang ngayon di ko alam kung sino sa mga kaklase ko yung siraulong pala-utot na yon.
Currently listening to: Suteki Da Ne
Currently reading: One Hundred Years of Solitude
Currently feeling: sick

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August 21st, 2004

PURO PROJECT! BWISET!

Posted by Nerva at 01:23 PM on August 21, 2004.

Physics
Filipino
English
Economics
Calculus
Linear Algebra
Pe
Health


PURO NA LANG PROJECT! BUWISET!!!
Currently listening to: Outrageous by Britney Spears
Currently reading: Abarat 2: Days of Magic, Nights of War
Currently feeling: infuriated

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August 22nd, 2004

Oh My.

Posted by Nerva at 04:55 PM on August 22, 2004 as a favorite post.

It looks like my big project, Ragnarok: The Day of Doom, would be much bigger than expected.

For the last two days I researched on various accounts of Ragnarok, and they confirmed a shocking revelation to me, one that might just be the pivotal plot in my fanfic.

I won't write here what I have found out, just for the sake of those who hate SPOILERS. But still, I doubt that the "skin-deep" readers will notice this plot device I am about to use; only true readers will see it through and appreciate it for what it is.

I am excited, and it makes me want to end The War of Emperium as soon as possible. My upcoming fanfic would truly be big and will require all my time and effort to make it truly worth reading and reviewing.

And this entry makes me more excited than ever.
Currently listening to: More To Life by Stacie Orrico
Currently reading: Ragnarok: The Day of Doom
Currently feeling: excited

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August 26th, 2004

Nyahahahaha~!

Posted by Nerva at 07:12 AM on August 26, 2004.


w00t! Wala na namang pasok! Ang lamig lamig dito sa Geffen! Mukha pa akong eng-eng kanina pag-gising ko...kumuha ako ng tuwalya, naligo tapos nagbihis...

Taka yung lola ko sabi sakin, "Tin, wala kayong pasok!"

Ampf naman, oo! Anak ng ginataang poring!

Kaya eto ako ngayon...ang aga-aga, me mga ka-chat na kaagad! Hindi pa nga ako kumakain ng almusal! Lagot ako sa tatay ko...

But anyway...another day of...err...projects....dammit, and dami ko pa ring gagawin!!!

Two projects left na lang naman (may sinakripisyo akong isa)...and thank God...matatapos na rin ang hectic na quarter na ito!

Agghhh....

Currently listening to: Numb by Linkin Park
Currently reading: WoT 5: The Lord of Chaos by Robert Jordan
Currently feeling: hyper

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August 28th, 2004

Books! Books! Books!

Posted by Nerva at 07:29 AM on August 28, 2004.

The Lord of Chaos rullleeeeeess!!! Ang ganda, sobra! Ah, here are the ff. books Nerva has to read and buy:

-- Divina Comedia by Dante Alighieri
-- Much Ado About Nothing by William Shakespeare
-- Aeneid by Virgil


We just had a long test about the whole of Iliad. I got 49/50. Damn Automedon!!!
Currently listening to: Halaga by Parokya ni Edgar
Currently reading: Inferno by Dante Alighieri
Currently feeling: happy

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